“You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.” ~C. S. Lewis
My whole life I've dreamed of doing something creative for a living, but my whole life has been focused on all these superficial milestones that other people, and I have been setting out in front of me. As a result, I've felt so lost, so unhappy, and completely helpless under the weight of my student loans.
For way too long, I've been overly focused on the things I should be doing rather than the things I want to be doing. Starting today, I am putting aside all wonder, all worry, and diving right in.
I just signed up for a metal smithing course (for jewelry) that starts TONIGHT! Crazy, right? Especially after my last few posts... Yes, it's more money. Yes, my spending already feels out of control. Yes, I may be having a quarter-life crisis, but...
I'm embarrassed to admit this, but I'm also floundering at my job. Between my health issues and my correlated depression it's nearing a time for me to consider some career alternatives. Taking this class will allow me to explore something I am passionate about. Maybe this will just be one more skill to tuck away, or maybe it's the start of my new future. All I know is that without trying, I will never go anywhere. This is one of the many reasons I am thankful I've built up my savings. I have the means to explore new directions and a small cushion to make a leap if I ever need to. And yes, absolutely yes, I am being BOLD.
This isn't about retail-therapy, this is about living my life for me, and not being afraid to dream.
As my friend just said to me. "Happy not moving backwards day :)"
I'm investing in myself - the best investment I could ever make.
My soul is happy.