Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Spending even more money...

 “You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.” ~C. S. Lewis

My whole life I've dreamed of doing something creative for a living, but my whole life has been focused on all these superficial milestones that other people, and I have been setting out in front of me.  As a result, I've felt so lost, so unhappy, and completely helpless under the weight of my student loans.   

For way too long, I've been overly focused on the things I should be doing rather than the things I want to be doing.  Starting today, I am putting aside all wonder, all worry, and diving right in.  

I just signed up for a metal smithing course (for jewelry) that starts TONIGHT!  Crazy, right?  Especially after my last few posts... Yes, it's more money.  Yes, my spending already feels out of control.  Yes, I may be having a quarter-life crisis, but...  

I'm embarrassed to admit this, but I'm also floundering at my job.  Between my health issues and my correlated depression it's nearing a time for me to consider some career alternatives.  Taking this class will allow me to explore something I am passionate about.  Maybe this will just be one more skill to tuck away, or maybe it's the start of my new future.  All I know is that without trying, I will never go anywhere.  This is one of the many reasons I am thankful I've built up my savings.  I have the means to explore new directions and a small cushion to make a leap if I ever need to.  And yes, absolutely yes, I am being BOLD.         

This isn't about retail-therapy, this is about living my life for me, and not being afraid to dream.

As my friend just said to me.  "Happy not moving backwards day :)"

I'm investing in myself - the best investment I could ever make. 

My soul is happy. 

1 comment:

  1. "Don't be pushed by your problems; be led by your dreams." ~Unknown